Im gulity Im not going to school today, Im on day 2 for sick days at college, and this is only day 6..how does that work? I mean I can't go to school today I no this.. Im actually in pain and im exhausted. SO exhauted I havent been this tired for a long time and I know its because of the infection. I know what pneumonia does to you, and well my breathing sucks but I dont feel the need to cough...which I guess is because alot of my nerves were cut in surgery. SO the emerg didnt think I was that serious .Orillias emerg that is. Even though they said my xray looked terrible. They didnt want to admit me, they never even called TGH, which is the reason why I didnt want to go there to begin with. They made it easy on themselves...gave me pills and told me to call my transplant team myself...yet the guy next to me who also had pneumonia...they had him on ventolin and he looked like he was getting admitted...how does that work>??? Not only that but I went for other reasons than just my lungs and they were completely over looked.
Im just scared that something bads gonna happen and Im going to loose everything again. ...im afraid of rejection and Im afraid when I cant get people to understand somethings wrong. I hate not going to school....i dont want to be that person again...the sick one...ive quite enjoyed my 11 months hospital free....tomorrow that might change.
PS thank god I didnt let them take out my port a cath
PPS
You can tell when someone is really sick. The sexy hospital wear starts creeping out slowly. Sweat pants galore, then the very fashionable old t shirts of various sizes, then socks with slippers, the hair stops being combed for a while...MAKE UP? ya theres no way..., they look tired and usuallly wear housecoats or sometimes just blankets, and they can do all of this in public too and not care.... Sexy hospital wear it creeps out.
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